Waiting game...is it time yet?

So now all of the paperwork is done. Initial deposit is made. Donor is labeled as "matched for cycle early 2011" (yea that us!!) on the agency website. Now we wait to hear when the clinic about when the donor will start her cycle. ... ... ... ... Is it time yet?!?!?

I want to be part of that 80% success group. My age is in my favor, I'm healthy overall but what can I do extra? And that's where I struggle. Should I do anything differently? Eat differently, lower alcohol consumption, blah, blah, blah.

I do know that I'm already stressed (I think just from the decisions that we've made regarding the donor and agency) , I've been having jaw pain for the past two weeks and I went to the dentist and I'm now being fitted for night guards...so sexy! I am going to the gym again. I'm not overweight or anything but it doesn't hurt.

Is it time yet?

One step for man...

Ok so I've stayed away for a while now...just wasn't inspired.

But we picked a donor yesterday!!! We just have to go though the paperwork and we wait until January. We want to wait until after the holiday when the clinic is closed before starting her on her meds and all of that fun stuff.

I feel like I'm going to burst at the seems!!!!

Rested

What a great week! I went to Deerhurst resort for my husbands work conference. It was a great place...pretty relaxing. I read a whole book, went to the spa, boating time, ate a lot of great food and drank some too. Oh, and I even got in a celebrity sighting...hello Shaina Twain!

I got a few emails from some ladies who want to join the support group I have started to organize here in Ottawa. I'm really looking forward to meeting some of you in person.

Tomorrow J and I have a phone conference with a possible new clinic. I'm really looking forward to getting the ball rolling. One more step soon under our belt. Wish us luck!

Michael Buble

I had the most amazing weekend ever! J and I went to see our favorite...Michael Buble and I have to say it was the most amazing concert ever. We sat 8 rows center stage!!! He was so funny, engaging, and the opening act Naturally 7 was pretty good as well, they don't have any instruments but make all of the sounds with their mouths...you.tube them so worth it. I can't believe I was so close. Here are a few pictures...

Support Group in my Area

I was looking at the IAAC website (Infertility Awareness Association of Canada) and noticed a section call support groups. My DH and I had a great talk the other night about how I need to surround myself with people who REALLY know what we are going through...although I love my blog support group I need some flesh and blood.

There wasn't one registered for my area (there is one at the local clinic but I don't want one monitored by a shrink)...but it also said that if you wanted information on starting your own group to contact them...so I did. About 45 minute later I got an email with a phone number and was asked to call. When I did not only did the person answer right away but I was talking to Beverly Hanck the IAAC Executive Director!!! She gave me some great advise about starting a group.

I'm looking forward to the first one in September.

More than a bit angry...

Ok so long story short...(at least tying to)

After being told that the US or a known donor are our only options and not really being happy with our clinic we decided to take a bit more control into our hands.

We began researching alternatives to the US due to how expensive it is. We found 2 popular options South Africa and Czech Republic, we were not 100% confident going overseas but $ is an issue.

We contacted a popular reproductive lawyer who was gobsmacked that we would go overseas and asked why we weren't doing this here in Canada. We mentioned that we wanted an anonymous donor and since the current (crappy) legislation doesn't allow for egg donors we were forced to look into alternatives. She said we could still do this here and there are donor agencies in Canada...WHAT?!?!

She gave me that names of them and after emailing them to get some info I'm just angry. Not at the agency but at my current clinic...why would they not tell me about this? Aren't they there to help me? Keeping in the back of my mind that I called the clinic previously in our alternative research to see if they could shed some light on the overseas options and all I got was "no comment" thru his receptionist. The lawyer said that they are one of the most conservative clinics in Canada. DH thinks its because they won't make as much money off if this route.

I'm scared and excited. Trying to find a different clinic now. Seems like the cost is about the same as going to Africa...but no lions, I guess I'll just go to the zoo.

Shout out to a fellow blogger and one of her followers

I was reading a blog that I have been following for a while..."One Egg Please" . R has a great way of really telling it like it is and I can relate to her story. She posted a link to an article in SELF magazine that hits home. It explains so nicely what I am feeling and what many women in my boat are feeling. Read on...

One of R's followers commented about a video from a woman named Keiko. I looked it up and couldn't help but cry. See it here. video

When I see there articles and videos I know I'm not alone.